Most black outs dealing with high school students are caused by drinking, drugs, or other idiotic endeavors. Mine on the other hand, are caused by some weird little brain impulse that never turns out well.

Before every seizure I have I completely black out before and after for about ten minutes. In these ten minutes I have no idea what’s going on, I may be texting or giving a presentation in front of the class. These black outs are not thanks to a delightful fruity drink that makes you a little tipsy. They’re thanks to the stress and lack of sleep brought on by a not-so-delightful load of homework.

My memory leaves me for at least a good 30 minutes during these so-called “episodes”, I am unable to recall even the slightest detail from memory. People always ask, “What is it like?” or “How do you handle it?” The only answer I can give is “I don’t know!” I am completely unconscious during my seizures. The only thing I can hope for is to wake up without a concussion.

After finally waking up out of my head- splitting haze I only have one question, “What on earth happened?” Of course I knew I had a seizure, with the signature headache, sore muscles, and concerned expression on my mother’s face. The things I need to know are when, where and who was there.

Blacking out is of course scary, but its apart of my life and my horrible medical record. Hopefully no one else knows what blacking feels like on a regular basis, and if you do, I wish you the best of luck and a soft place to land.